Existentail Agnst

The show must go on! F.Mercury

Edvard Munch

Is this the real life? Is this just a fantasy?

OMG, 2026 is already upside down. I have a cold, and I am at home trying to decide-

Should I read a bit more tyrannical buffoonery, or should I get lost in a word-slop podcast? It’s 15 degrees below freezing here, and I need to walk the dogs, whom I have grown to admire. They have it good. Can someone put a cute sweater on me and take me for a pee too?

Any way the wind blows doesn’t really matter to me, to me.

Mama just killed a man.

ICE just shot a woman x3.

The devil with blue eyes and dude liner tells us the “in her face” shooter has “Complete Immunity.” Like my son says, “TF?!”

I have run out of Kleenex, which is a blessing. I must get up and out of this corporate-owned apartment and head down to Walgreens. I have my whistle. But my throat is too sore to blow it if I see ICE headed for immigrants in the cold aisle. But I am in the mood to do something cra cra, should I have “Complete Immunity “ too!

Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters.

Too late, my time has come.

Existential angst doesn’t mean that Freddie or I are/were suicidal. Currently, as my nose runs and paper towels irritate it on my way to relief, it is very hard to find meaning in what truly feels like a meaningless America. I can’t even think about the world. I am very good at making meaning out of madness. But it seems today the buffoonery has reached an expiration date.

I am a therapist and know how not to spiral. I studied theology and know how to search for answers that speak to my “why.” As Frankel and Nietzsche note,” Those who have a ‘why’ to live can bear with almost any ‘how.’ And, I work with folks who really struggle to find their ‘Why.’ Especially when the dark forces align and make for unbearable heartbreak. And, although I will be here until I am called elsewhere, today I can sing it loud with Freddie, we lament...

I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all.

This is a feeling, not a fact. Music helps me process the darker side of our being. The clanging gongs of American buffoonery will not get the best of me!

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango?

My research is limited today because AI pisses me off almost as much as ICE, but.... in the 1600’s, a scaramouch was an English cowardly buffoon. “Nuff said, get out my head orange devil, get out, get out !!

Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me
(Galileo) Galileo, (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo Figaro, magnifico

We all have these conflicting voices in our heads. We are not mad. We live in a mad world. And our lives matter. All Lives Matter! Our humanity depends on all good minds to unite and be magnifico. Vote down the Figaro!

But how do we put the devil aside when it’s where the money is? The 2 most influential economic drivers in the US are Tech and Gambling. I am by no means a prude. But, I do know that gambling environments are not high on human connection, empathy, or altruism.[ Literally, some peeps on the slots wear diapers.] I recall way back in 1990, a professor warning us about moral relativism. I hear him so clearly, “When everything goes Laurie, nothing matters.”

And here we are. Does anything matter? An America driven by gambling energy is the third damn demon. Freddie, you were so right, we are living the Bohemian Rhapsody!!!

Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me,

Oh, mamma mia, mamma mia
Nothing really matters to me

But we must make meaning together, soon, very soon. The tribal behaviors of America is hopeless, ghough that we should not pass to our children. Three shots into the head of Rennee Good are 3 shots into the meaning and humanity of America. Alarm bells should be ringing, and both the democrat and republican Scaramouches need to be ...........voted out, voted out, voted out!!!!!!!!

Forward party.com If you’re feeling hopeless, check out a 3^rd option. Andrew Yang is a humanitarian with no Scaramouche!!!!

If you are struggling with depression and have suicidal thoughts, please seek professional help and/or call 988.